Childhood

Affects of Change

Do you ever wake up having the feeling that something is different or not the same as before, almost like your missing something so dear to you but yet you cant really describe it to other. Loosing someone so close and dear to you changes your way of life from that point on mainly because it takes a lot of strength to carry on. I have dealt with this type of change many times but this one event in particular really hit me hard. How was I suppose to move on with this sense of emptiness and loneliness having to carry the weight of the world on my shoulders with my best friend.

Cancer is something that can change everything and well my aunt was slowly dieing from cancer that started in her foot which quickly and unexpectedly spread up her body. We had tried everything possible to getting the best and smartest doctors money could buy and yet they could not stop the spread but only give us her estimated time of death. See, what you have to is that my family has suffered ten other deaths weather they were kids, adults, or grandparents but this was different because we were about to loose the backbone and soul of this family. My aunt Amer was the go to lady, the woman that held this family together strong in despite times and picturing life with out her means this family will be a disaster.

My aunt and I were very close, she was like a second mother to me and like the sister I never had and to watch her slowly die in front of me was the most upsetting and depressing event I have ever witnessed in my life. That night the house nurse paid her last visit to my aunt for she was on her death bed and she could no longer help with anything. Since my aunt Amer passed away nothing has been the same anymore, waking up every morning with a huge part of me missing and the more I went on the more of me started to get lost as well. I was forced to change my way of