Growing Up In Highschool

Freshman Year 2005

My freshman year was suppossed to be my year, the year I was finally going

to be in "Highschool".It was considered the most important year in my life, that I could've

only dreamed about. You see,from the fifth to eighth grade i attended homeschool and

smaller schools. Highschool was going to be big!I thought I was finally going to be

considered a young adult.This very year 2005 would be the hardest year of my life.

I remeber this year like the back of my hand. My bestfriends were Jatereus,

Leneice, Denise, and J'Quaylon. Most of the time, Leneice would not hang with the

four of us, but always me by myself. The other four of us created our own little group,

"The Box", since we had known eachother for the longest. Leneice on the other hand

never had many friends. Most girls did not like her, because their boyfriends did, and she

liked them too. Through it all I was still her friend. Leneice and I were like sisters, we

went to the movies stayed over eachothers house, went shopping, everything. We even

dressed alike and said we were twins, even though we look nothing alike. We soon

became inseprable. Conveinently, her mother was my daddy's secretary which made

us even closer. Soon, things began to spin out of control. I remebering saying to

Leneice, "Our moms are really good friends", and her making a face like she had

something to tell me. Common sense wasn't my very strong trait. When things first

started to change, it was around time for my parents vowel renewel, they would have

been married ten years.My dad began staying at the "office" later and later. It began to

be I"m busy or I'm Tired, when we wanted to do something. Promises began to

become unkept, our bond began to break. Not only was my dad a stock broker, he was also a youthpastor at our church. Soon, the secret was out. I knew in my heart what the

secret was, but my fear made me hold it in. Whoever told you "Your bestfriend can be

Your worse enemy" was right. I felt like a fool, this girl had known my deepest secrets

she stayed at my house, she ate our food, but she kept one thing from me. She never

told me our parents were having an afair. It hurts me to have to talk about this, but this

is what i remember of my year. I call it my secret of death. So many times I wish I could

rewind the things i said to her, and kept from my mom.This is the secret that killed my love.

My new issue was trust. That summer before school started, my youth group attended a

Christian Camp called CIY(Christ In Youth Conference) in Durango, Colorado. I was so

excited. I decided to look past me and Leneice's differences and just have fun. This trip

was so fun. My cousin Coco also attended. The week was going by great until my cousin

began acting a little weird. She began not talkin to me and giving me really mean glares.

Next thing I know, Leneice is telling me some really mean things Coco said. We were upset

all week! We talked it out, and found that it was over that coniving girl. That night, we did

baptism in the pool, and I saw her with my dad's phone looking through it. I sent my

sister's friend Allysha to go and get the phone because i didn't want to get nasty with anybody

that night. The girl must have ticked me off to my highest point, because I went off.

I was about to mess this girl up, for messing up my family. I was screaming and yelling at her,

and she was crying uncontrollably. I called her names, so many nasty mean names to

her felt nothing. I had no pity for her! No pity whatsoever. I still to this day don't have

have any sympathy for her. It got so out of hand, my mama and Ms.Felecia had to

had to take us to another room and talk to us. My mother asked her at least five times did

she