He Is Lost

People seem to think that I don't care about much anything. Maybe it's true, but if there is something I care about, you best damn be sure that it's important to me.

I strive to be the best at whatever I... care about. I would say do, but to be honest there's a lot of things I do that don't hold much interest to me. The things I do like include: ....ya I got nothing. It sounds clichÐ"©, but I enjoy fun things. My taste in music knows no bounds. I'll listen to pretty much anything. I'll drink and enjoy drinking games, but I know my limit. Every now and again I've also been known to smoke those jazz cigarettes. Does drinking and drugs make me cool? Not really. What does make me cool? I don't know. Ask my friends, they seem to like me.

People tell me I'm funny. Apparently funny is harder than it looks. I don't know if it's considered a skill or a good trait to have, but I don't mind it. In such a fucked up world, we'd die without a little humor here and there. I like to think I can provide it. I think my sense of humor comes from my views on life. They're different than most peoples I would think. I can't provide an example off the top of my head, but if you talked to me, you'd probably know what I'm getting at.

Right now I'm going to community college because I didn't have the dedication for a university. Notice I said didn't. I went to Western for a year and basically fucked up. I learned a lot about myself there though, but it probably wasn't worth the 17 grand. Shit like that will happen though. I don't see myself as less of a person because of it, and I don't expect you to do the same. If you do, that's your thing and it's really not my problem.

I'd like to say I'm not your ordinary guy. I think I give women more respect than they deserve sometimes, but I can still come off as an asshole. I'm like one end of the spectrum and the other at the same time. It's crazy, but it's me. I strive to be different. I want to stand out in a crowd of clones. If every guy is wearing abercrombie or hollister polos and backwards hats with short hair, I'll be the one in something I found at value world and having my hair all shagnasty. Don't think I'm dirty though, I keep a clean ship. I don't enjoy hair anywhere on my body. I'll shave my pits, chest, stomach, ass, even my legs if I think it's getting out of hand.

I'm a cuddler. And not just cuddles that hopefully lead to sex. Sex doesn't really matter that much to me. I mean if you're down then hey, why not, but it's not a main objective like it seems to be in a lot of guys lives. If I need to center myself