My First Horror Movie

How and why it affected me JonMichael Moore October 16, 2008 When I was about nine years old I watched my first horror movie that was based on true accounts, The Texas Chainsaw Massacre (1974). This was the first time that I realized that things of this nature really do happen. It was accidental my older cousins told me it was real. Mom had to explain that some people are sick in a way that makes them do terrible things, terrible things they can not stop themselves from doing. While watching The Texas Chainsaw Massacre, I remember feeling very scared and traumatized and at the same time. I was interested in how and why some one would act out in such a fashion. This movie made me aware of things and people that are not normal. Although this movie frightened me, I was unable to stop watching it because of how it made me feel. A sense of normality, I had always been very interested in death and violence. I always felt like there was some sort of evil inside of me and this movie fed the fire. I visualized my self committing an act of that nature. Thinking about what it would feel like to inflict that much fear and pain into another human being. I also fantasized about how I would feel to be in that type of situation, being chased by a mad man. Terrified for myself, my friends, and whether or not I am going to live or die. I wondered what it would be like to watch someone without being seen. I would visualize the people that were mean to me in school and inflicting fear and pain on them. I would have to agree that when Steven King says, "It deliberately appeals to all that is worst in us. It is morbidity unchained, our most base instincts let free, our nastiest fantasies realized . . . and it all happens, fittingly enough, in the dark." This is some thing that is very real to me. For years I felt that I was weird because I had madness running through my veins. After reading King's "Why We Crave Horror Movies", I grasped that I was not alone