Personal Narrative Tragic Memory
Essay by LeiAsia Hailey • February 14, 2017 • Creative Writing • 1,383 Words (6 Pages) • 1,186 Views
Leiasia Hailey
Oct 3, 2016
Personal Narrative
Bye Daddy.
“You gotta go! All the shit you put me and my kids through we don't deserve that, but that other bitch and your other kids oh yeah a perfect match” -Mami
“Jay get outta here with all that bull shit if that's what you want so be it, but my kids gonna always love their daddy. You goofy as hell if you thought anything different”.-daddy
That was the conversation I heard as I approached the steps of my house. 2410 Stair street a two family flat in the heart of southwest “Mexicantown” Detroit. I knew I would be walking into a crossfire. I looked at the steps they seemed to look like the steps off Disney's Alice in Wonderland. As I walked up those steps, my heart seemed to beat 3× faster each step I went up. The conversation grew louder and more clear. My eyes started to water but I knew not to let one tear fall. Mami always said “crying not gone do nothing for you but make other people hurt you more”. Finally, I made it to the top of the steps and pushed open the door.
I knew exactly what to look for. If they had been fighting physically the house would have been a mess, family photos on the floor, vases shattered, and clothes his or hers all over the place in the house. Now, if they were fighting verbally everything would seem calm but like the quiet storm the thunder would soon roll. I wanted to believe that my ears were playing tricks on me, that Mami wasn't so angry, and that daddy wouldn't leave .
Little did I know that day was the last time my daddy would ever live in the same house as Dasia, jr, Mami, and I.
Usually Mami would greet me with a kiss on my cheek. She used to kiss me all the time, but that was before when she was sweet. She told me to go check on Dada and jr and to sit with them while she finished talking to aunt Betty on the phone.Aunt Betty was daddy's oldest, and only sister. I didn't see daddy but I smelled cigarettes so I knew he couldn't be far. I went into jr room Dasia and him were playing this V- tech games system they were having so much fun. I smiled at them a kissed them. I asked “are Yall ok?” Dasia said “yup I'm beating jr again”. The fact that their minds hadn't grasp that daddy could possibly be leaving forever made me worry. Who was going to tell them? How are they going to feel? Will they cry or act out? Will they forget him? So much filled my 8 year old head. Gramma tells me to this day “you keep on worrying if you want , but when your head explode we not going to Children's.” how much I wished she could have been there.
After checking on the kids I just had to find my daddy to check him. See his face even. I snuck passed my Mami’s cracked bedroom door to the bathroom. I stood in the threshold of the door. There was my daddy sitting on the toilet seat holding his head as if he was praying to Allah, smoking a cigarette. I tapped his bald ,sweaty head, and said hey. He lifted head and smiled at me he said “wassup baby”. I said “nothing, what's up with you?”. He looked back down and then kissed me on the forehead. “We gotta talk about some things leek” my daddy rarely ever was serious. He was a silly daddy, he was the daddy that made you laugh while you were getting your hair braided by mami, the daddy who cracked jokes on Mami, and played dress up. Even though they were arguing he would still Crack a joke here and there ,but this time it was different. He was serious ands a heart attack, and I wasn't ready to talk to daddy seriously. I just wanted to laugh with him, joke with him, and Forget about seriousness. I knew that wasn't even slightly possible.
I walked in the bathroom and sat on the rim of the tub. I had already prepared myself for disappointment, expecting the absolute worst outcome. Now, that I think about it , I wonder if I had been more positive would the outcome have changed, would my daddy still be in my life if I had only been more optimistic? There I go again worrying myself. I swung my feet back and forth until he finally said “Look it's some shit that daddy did that he can't take back.” “Now I've apologized to Mami but that ain't enough.” “I love Yall mami too but we can't live with together no more.” “I gotta go live with auntie for a while, but I'm gone still see you and I will always love you.”
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