Quote Essay

"What a tangled web we weave when first we practice to deceive"

I portrayed myself as an innocent child with no mistakes or kinks. I was able to keep the side of me every Bible thumper shunned and pointed out. I was told that I was mature for my age, responsible and dependable. I created the greatest con, it was flawless. Then the day came when I grew tired and let my parents in on my secret. Too embarrassed to admit their baby was an alcoholic and a pot head, they to began to play my game.

It took me two years to realize everything I was doing was to get back at my parents for getting a divorce, but I only hurt myself. After I realized my own mistake, I felt embarrassed. It was hard to believe that I put myself in danger to get revenge. After moving away I began to think of the lies people tell to portray an image of a perfect life. The lies began to pile up, they start telling lies to cover previous lies and somewhere down the line they lose track of who they really are. They try to grow up too fast but it isn't right so they tie a knot in time and instead of gaining wisdom they become immature. Eventually life begins to make sense, by then it's too late and they're left to catch up.

I now know that growing old is part of life's' cycle, so everything you do in life molds the person you are today. From the time you take your first breath till your heart beats the last beat you're caught in time. It's between that first breath and the last beat that you mold into the person people know. In that time you take many journeys and they all have different endings, sometimes good and others bad. There are so many paths you take in life your trail is only possible if taken by you (for others it is a knot, a winding maze with no ending)