What A Loser.

a year?

wow. I really can't believe its been a year. And the pain has not gotten any better. I still miss her soooo much. I knew her for like 10 years. Its hard to get over someone you've know a grand portion of your life. And she really was one of my very best friends. Not a day goes by when I don't think of her. I think she's in heaven, so I talk to her that way, through prayer, but its really not the same. I also think she watches over me, so that brings me some comfort as well. That doesn't make it easier all the time, however. Sometimes the pain becomes unbearable. I wish she were still alive. I wish I could see her smiling face on a bad day and then have all the bad stuff go away, like it always did. I wish she was there to sing high with me and sit in my lap. I wish she could've gotten into NHS, I would've tapped her. I feel good about some things, such as my yearbook quote, and the auditorium seat. But all of that doesn't bring her back. I do all I can to remind people of her. She is my hero, and I strive to be more like her everyday. The prayer service yesterday was extremely hard, especially talking/crying with Mrs. Jordan after. JACKIE MAY BE GONE, BUT SHE IS NOT FORGOTTEN!!!!!!!!!!!

F.R.O.G.