Diary Of Piquette

Diary of piquette

Wow for once i feel accepted, by vanessa's father. It feels as though he is the only man that cares for me in this world because he has cared for me and cared for my leg. It hurts and it feels like he is the only man who understands and feels my pain. I cannot show these feelings because if i do it will show i am weak and vulnerable, espessially around vanessa's family. Its amazing because they have invited me for a trip to diamond lake. I need to hide my feelings toward there family because i am scared of attachment and i don't want it, i don't care about it. I have given up on people.......

Later on during the trip

I don't know what Vanessa wants to get out of me, she gets really annoying sometimes, but i feels shes interested in, NO i don't want it shes getting too close i think ill stay around the house for most of this trip and keep quiet help around the house and even take care of Vanessa's little brother, it might help them, after all Vanessa's father has done more than enough for me.

Few weeks later

I don't know why Vanessa keeps trying to get in to my head and i feel as though she keeps rubbing in the fact i am Indian. It hurts, it really does but what am i to do..? i feel as though everyone here is bothered by that fact and even Vanessas mom, i know she think about it. It just sucks that her dad is gone. He had to go back to the city so i feel i am really alone here. Am i? Thats the only thing i think of when im with Vanessa, she tries to talk to me but i don't want to because i feel like i do not belong here, with them. I do not fit in with them, color, physically, metally, and in every way, my values and heritage are even different; i know i don't belong.....