Love And Life

Love and Life

Webster defines love as a strong affection for another arising out of kinship or personal ties. Everybody in the world needs to be loves by someone of something. The first place many begin to look is in the comfort of their own home. That works for many but I on the other hand am in a different situation. My parents did drugs when they were younger, and my mother still can not let go of her addiction. This has caused my family many problems. I, being the youngest of two, am always searching for love. My mother's addiction, I feel, took part of her from me. I lost my sense of security after realizing this. Not feeling love from both my parents was hard to understand. I felt alone for a very long time. Going through adolescence did not make times easier. I went through the stage where I felt no one understood me. I would go through battles by myself because I felt no one could help me. My mother was not sober which kept increasing my feeling of loneliness. After going through this pain my whole life, I decided to search for love outside my home. To find anybody that would love me was better than no one. I found a boyfriend when I was fifteen. It was wonderful, I found someone who could actually replace the love I was missing. Being so vulnerable I did anything and everything he said. He gave me the love I thought I was missing and controlled my every move. Being controlled did not pose as a problem for me, because I felt like somebody cared. I lived this controlled life for the past three years, and now I am trying to move on. My teenage years were almost lost because I was trying to be someone I was not just for love. I went away to college to try to become my own person. I learned a lot in the past three years. You can not search for love because it will not always be true. Being alone is not that horrible compared to being controlled. Finally, you must learn